JOURNALING with JOSH

  Human feelings make up everything on the planet. We are all at the mercy of them entirely. It's an intricate balance and fight we struggle with. They're what is sterilizing the planet and also the feedback that makes life feel alive. All power that individuals have is based on "feelings" wealth exists as a concept and not a fundamental truth. There is no god, there is no outside influence other than physics, there is only us. There is beauty and horror in that. But the greatest lie we tell ourselves is that this ability is unique to us, as a species. There is an obvious conscious decision when we see a predator choose companionship with what could be prey or chooses to consume said prey. There are physical rules that we are learning how to measure and how to bend to our will, and then there are the rules we make up, and every day we are collectively as a species making choices. The only thing worthy of hatred and contempt is abuse of power. To which we, collectively

 Israel lies because it is a force of evil in the world. Good can't lie, because humans will immediately dismiss an entire message if it even smells like a lie. Israel lies about its intent for murdering civilians, for murdering journalists, for murdering aid workers. Israel lies about its intent for retrieving hostages. It wields these hostages as a tool to justify genocide. Who have likely been killed by Israel's own bombs. I'm not saying Hamas is good, because they aren't. But Israel is evil. at its core. Nobody is buying the bullshit anymore.

Uh oh, your band mate expressed himself which put your brand at risk. You've done so well not stepping on any of the wrong toes, you've made all the correct decisions, your partner made his bed, better course correct! The spectacle is the true value! You've shown fealty, you'll be accepted back into the circle after a few lashings. You're the lesson to so many others, you've behaved very well. A good boy. What's your comradeship worth? Not this much! Not all the future what ifs, yes you have enough but you could have so much more! You are an artist in the spotlight, your brand is silly and edgy, but not too edgy.  Not THIS edgy. Artists feeling they have the same responsibility as politicians and the powerful is sad. I cant absolutely say if I was a popular artist I wouldn't choose loyalty to the machine when the machine provides a thriving existence, but when your critique is of the powerful and not punching down, apologies feel like cowardice.

  Israel's first instinct after october 7th for months was to mass murder children and women until the world was like "yo, not cool" Israel is not electing people who are capable of rational decision making, and part of that is because America and the West is shielding them from any and all consequences for their actions. Allowing AIPAC to attack, silence, bully, and undermine American democracy is weakening Israel because Israel knows it has no right to exist fundamentally. a "right to exist" is a ridiculous notion to begin with. The west believing it has any right to enable an ethnostate with overt and unambiguous goals of genocide is absolute absurdity. Israel as a concept can exist, Israel as a Zionist utopia has no right to exist.

 All frustration is born out of a lack of control. Control that never truly existed in the first place. You're leaving our relationship?  My business isn't doing well? You're not laughing at my jokes. My pet is dying. That stranger was rude to me! Not one of these things is controllable because it relies on another. Now hatred, that is love plus control. Love is just love, love happens effortlessly, love is our standard state of being. We are born loving the first people we grow up with, we naturally love anyone who we spend an amount of time with. Hatred happens when someone or something we care about spirals out of OUR control. Real or imaginary, there is a desire to exert control over what we hate in some manner. or when we convince ourselves of a threat to what we love, real or imaginary. There are physical rules of the universe, we have to eat or we die. We get to make up a lot of things, like WHAT we eat. There are consequences for what we eat, and that is part of the

  hey, remember when right wing leaders controlled our military and were honestly debating on the value of torture after 9/11. Pretty cool that we were able to have a national discussion about that. but maybe we should take that as a red flag that right wingers should never hold military power ever again at that point.